Dig

Mar 20, 2017

2 min read

Hello Everyone, it has been a while since I have posted. I have had a lot going on the past little while to keep my mind occupied :)

While enjoying my day off today I have been cleaning the house and listening to music. I decided to throw on an Incubus playlist (good sing along music). "Dig" came on, and I haven't heard the song in a while so I stopped to listen. Not 2 seconds in I started crying. If you don't know the song, please stop and listen to it now.

I love that music speaks to us all in our own different way, and somehow it finds you at the time you need it the most. I am lucky enough to have grown up with a connection to music, it's like my soul can feel it.

This song hit me today because I seemed to have forgot. In all the pain of infertility, I have forgot that I would not be anywhere with the person I "dig". Ironically infertility hurts more because I want to give HIM a child. I would have never thought I would have married a man as in sync as Pat and I are. He is the "ying to my yang". Where I struggle, he has strength. When he sees negative, I see positive.

A little while a go, we had a tough stretch. We wouldn't go for more than 2 hours without a fight. We would be constantly at each others throats. BUT even in the heat of the argument, we loved each other. We now thankfully have moved past that phase, and are stronger as a couple. I strongly believe if our infertility can't tear us apart, nothing will.

Everyday I am thankful I have him in my life. He makes me feel special, and that I have a purpose. He never shys away from saying and showing how much he loves me.

"Remind me that we'll always have each other When everything else is gone"